I think that the problem is that I’m stuck waiting for him to do something, to make a move, to say the perfect thing. And the problem is, that I shouldn’t be that girl, the one who sits and waits for him. I should be independent. I should think clearly and consistently without having my mind jump straight back to him. Yeah, falling for someone is the hardest thing to do. And the stupid thing is standing in my way and feeling fear of losing him, the fear of rejection, the fear that I might lose a friend that means everything to me. I want to be everything to him, but I’m not. I’m not the kind of girl he needs, and I’ll never be that girl.